I’m Back!

Hi everyone, remember me? It’s only been like what, three weeks since my last post but who’s counting right? To be honest  real life has finally come and hit me square in the face and I’ve had to come to terms with what I can realistically do.

For the past year and a half I have enjoyed the luxury of being a “stay-at-home-mom”. It wasn’t always easy and there were days I wished it was me going to work instead of my husband. There are some people with the misconception that being a “stay-at-home-mom” means sitting at home all day and doing whatever you want (I know because I used to be one of them). However, this couldn’t be any farther from the truth! There is always a diaper to change, laundry to do, errands to run, and meals to cook. Then you have those occasional days when your children demand all of your, time, attention, and energy. It is at the end of days like that when I’d gladly trade my husband jobs.

Now that my husband is in school full time with a demanding schedule, it looks like my wish has come true. I’ve been greatly blessed to find a wonderful job that will allow me to provide for my family while my husband finishes school, but it has been a rough adjustment for all of us. I hope to one day find a good balance in my new situation, but for now I feel confused, guilty, and torn. Over the past year and a half my role has been to be a mother. I was fortunate enough to be able to stay at home and devote all my time to taking care of my baby and the home. It too was a rough adjustment at first but I came to find great joy in it. While becoming a mom is by far the greatest thing I’ve ever done, it has also been the hardest. It wasn’t always necessarily the sleepless nights or the 24/7 care that a baby requires that was hard but finding my own identity within  being a wife and a mother. I can honestly say that since having my baby I have come to find myself.

While being a mother and a homemaker is still a major role in my life (and the most important), I am now having to take on the role of provider, at least until my husband is done with school. It is a sacrifice I agreed to and am willing to make to help my husband fulfill his goals, but it certainly doesn’t make leaving my baby any easier. Since I started working a little over two weeks ago my time at home seems much more precious. With less time at home and more time away from my family I’ve been struggling to balance and prioritize my life. I’ve been force to really ask myself what things are most important and what things are not. In order to determine this I decided to make a list of what my underlying goals and priorities are in life. Here is my list:

1.  Be an attentive mother.
2.  Fall more in love with my husband everyday.
3.  Continue to build my relationship with my Father in Heaven and act in His will.
4.  Remain true to who I am and what I love.

These basic yet profound lifelong goals are what influence my daily actions and priorities. With all this being said, I also love blogging and am determined to continue what I began only four short months ago. I may not be posting as often (hopefully more often than every three weeks) but I hope you’ll continue to follow and enjoy my adventures in life as a working mom, wife, seamstress and blogger!


4 thoughts on “I’m Back!

  • Commented 10 years ago

    Thank you for your comment Rachel! I’m not going to lie, starting a blog and a new job on top of being a full-time wife and mother sent me through a mini identity crisis. How could I possibly do it all?! Well what I didn’t give myself was a little time to work things out. It’s now been several months since I started working and things are definitely starting to flow a little easier. I’m still horrible at balancing my time but I guess that too takes time and practice. Anyway, I hope we too can become fast friends. Heaven, knows we could always use more friends!

  • Commented 10 years ago

    I found you via a link up party with your land of nod knock off and am glad I spent some time perusing your blog for a bit. I think we could be fast friends and I love your honesty with this post. I look forward to following you now and seeing how life unfolds for you and your family. As often or not as often as you can post!

  • Commented 10 years ago

    I hear ya loud and clear. My baby is only 5 months old so I am no pro at this working Mom thing, but it has been a HUGE adjustment for me. I feel guilty 95% of the time…not being with my baby, not being a better wife or employee. Yet, realistically, I’m emotionally drained from it all. My Mom keeps telling me to just do my best and that it does get easier as you prioritize and organize your life. She is the one watching my baby so I do have comfort in knowing that he is getting loved on while I am away each day.

  • Commented 10 years ago

    This was so refreshing to read and I TOTALLY understand how you feel. I am about to take a bit of a leave of absence from my blog b/c I just cannot continue to post four to five times a week, work, be a mom, be a wife, freelance design on the side AND blog. I am starting to feel like it is taking precious time away from my family. I also love to blog, but it is going to have to take the backseat for a bit. Good luck with your new job!

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